I can hardly believe so much time has elapsed since I last recorded my thoughts on this ephemeral chalkboard. My life has turned all topsy-turvy, and oftentimes I have absolutely no idea which way is up. My cat Smoke has taken to digging in the window blinds several times a day, trying (I imagine) to dig his way outside. Perhaps he just likes the noise it makes...who knows. Nate has wandered off to fulfill his dream of being an Americorps member. I never realized how much he stabilized my life. His withdrawal seems to be the factor creating the loss of gravity feeling I now associate with my life. School and work both seem to drain me so that I feel I have even less time than I did a few months ago.
Sometimes it feels like nothing will ever work out and just getting out of bed seems to be the most challenging task. Sometimes things get better though, and even if I can't get out of bed I am still happy. I am so glad to have that warmth. My life is a long, random stream of consciousness which flows into and out of this world. One day perhaps I will be able to control its flow, but for now I am content to ride the waves as a passenger merely absorbing the scenery as it flies past.